HUANG BAOYI

2012-03-10T03:48:00.001+08:00

We used to talk to each other everyday,
Now we like don even know each other .

Depress-ed

2012-03-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

I hate the fact that I missed you .
I hate the fact that I need you .
I hate the fact that I feel so broken when I heard things from her .
I wanted to beg her , beg her to stop telling me .
But I just smile and listen .
I will stop , forbid myself .

I'm going silent .
How to go on .
I will hide everything .
Keep them all to myself .
I will keep quiet from today on .
I promised .

2012-03-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

Everytime I'm freezing cold , I missed you.

2012-03-03T14:18:00.004+08:00

2012-02-23T01:16:00.002+08:00

I am too dependent on you .
Everytime im stressed I will want talk to you
But I think you are more stressed than me nw.
So I can't disturb you .
I start to suspect if I rli have a brain ?
Y I can studied an repeating the same paragraph for 3 hrs b4 I can rmb them .
I have been studying since mornin and now I'm still at chap 3?!
Is it cos I have lack of slp ?/: shuld I slp nw ?
Bt Im afraid I can't finished studying .

Going crazy . - I'm brainless ):

2012-02-16T00:07:00.001+08:00

My Valentine Day Present (:

i need a teddy thank you for EVERYTHING (:

2012-02-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

With you around I know I'm protected .
With you around I know I won't be hurt.
With you around I know I can trust that you'll always be here for me

ILoveYou.

2012-02-12T13:06:00.002+08:00

A day out wit 大胖, fat and felicia. (:

2012-02-01T01:26:00.002+08:00

its FEBRUARY!
time why are you flying?..
time i need you seriously..

im so tired ):

2012-01-27T03:12:00.001+08:00

If I can turn back the time , I want to go back to the days when we first met and become friend.

2012-01-27T01:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year !~ :D
sorry ah all is my picture!! LOL !! from day 1 navy blue dress , day 2 beigde color dress and day 3 red color top n black leather short! (:
omg!~ this new like a enjoyable only! 除夕- steamboat at home. 初一 - go ah ma hse bai nian and play poker (: bounding LOL and go ah yi hse bai nian steamboat with my cousins! and poker time! midnight cheng , hj , jm,lester and beng came my hse for poker LOL ((: power! 初二- went ah yi hse steamboat poker and wait for my dear lao gal cousin to come hm!! haha :D 初三 - go felicia hse "bai nian"-.-" ahem. don wan say le LOL. then went to wei jie hse to play poker and bai nian (: 初四- went school for network and hm sweet hm with wei jie and li jun for steamboat and do project (: GOOD LIFE AH! haha !! :D and its goes on tomorrow!~ NO SCHOOL!! WOOHOO!!! <3

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

I FEEL SO FAT T^T

2012-01-18T23:46:00.001+08:00

I wanted to tell you that I really miss-ed you . But I don't know how to say it.

I miss-ed you .

2012-01-18T01:24:00.002+08:00

It's really make me wonder am I really that worthless , that's why you people are treating me this way ?): this feelings sucks and really feel like dying . ): tired of all these .

2012-01-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

Now is my turn trying to talk to you /: but you don't seem to be trying .

2012-01-04T14:20:00.001+08:00

you are happier without me.

2012-01-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

You'll Never know how much you have hurt people. You'll know how hurt I was today. You'll
Never know how I feel today . You'll never understand how I feel today. Fucking day . I tried damn hard to smile . I hate it today. I hate it all.

I'm feeling so unwell. But don't know which part of my body is causing the pain.
慢性自杀？ feel fucking pain ! -.-"

2012-01-01T14:05:00.001+08:00

My New Year Eve and New Year with my Great Friends! (:
its AWESOME! (: <3

2012-01-01T13:39:00.003+08:00

Tao house warming! (: its at pasir ris!
Tao house was great!
HAPPY DAY SPENT WITH THEM (:

i missed my RILAKUMA ):

2011-12-29T02:04:00.002+08:00

i had a great day today (:

dream-catcher.

i hope you are fine.

2011-12-28T11:58:00.001+08:00

thanks for the present (:

don't know what happened to you.

2011-12-23T14:01:00.002+08:00

This is my christmas present from TCH. Thank You (:
omg totally in christmas mood!~
jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way.
where are we gg on the 24 dec?! come on think!!
have great fun wit my frens ytd!
25th gg bro hse.

with loves<3

2011-12-20T23:46:00.002+08:00

have great time with all my GREAT FRIENDS (:
super happy de can (: time please pass slower <3

this is what we call true friends (:

2011-12-04T11:45:00.001+08:00

I dk hw long it will take .
I think I dying soon.
Why bcome like this . Afraid of myself .
真的完蛋了这次

2011-12-04T10:28:00.007+08:00

Don't understand yet mistaken .
Mistaken yet kept quiet.
Cried heart out yet no different .
Pain remain . It's still hurts.
You don't know the real reasons .
Think how come you all always saw that ?
Ans: you all are 24/7 tgt .
What you do wen you missed someone ? Web texting get no reply ? Call?
What you do when someone "lied" angry ?
Hang the call ? .
Think think . Just think .
You all don't understand .

Misunderstanding .

2011-11-28T21:56:00.001+08:00

Seriously . Who can save me ? Who want bring me out of here . Everything changed . Save me I'm drowning !

2011-11-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

It's really make my heart shattered when all along I thought that everything is so wonderf . I feel so fortunate with my life . Thanks for whatever I have now . I feel sad when seeing people don't have what I thought I have all along since I'm so young . I thought I was de happiest person . The most fortunate person . But when I learn about the facts . I really want say fml . I don't know how to accept it . When the most perfect person turn out to be so imperfect to me. After so long this person become so unfamiliar to me . What happening . I just need the happiness we used to have over the 20 + yrs. I just want the familiar and Perfect you back. Please come back . I missed the perfect you in our heart .

2011-11-27T21:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PREETY CHEL & XUAN (: <3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (:

2011-11-24T17:41:00.002+08:00

why is it raining ):
raining = no running = fat.
im so ):
where is my sunshine!

2011-11-23T07:31:00.002+08:00

I'm so exhausted everyday after the run and additional hr of exercising . It's tiring seriously . Feel physically tired . BUT I will not give up (: feel so happy after all de exercising though it's rli tiring. No more sweet drinks I will drink plain water (: if I have the energy n time tonight I will run another 10 rounds (:

I hope you are happy .
I have no idea why are you sad .
When nothing really changed at all .
Don't think too much (: everything are still the same !

2011-11-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Today actually gg wrk for ah yi cos im so broke.
she need me and i nd $ LOL!
too many ppl bday and festivals are coming up.
can i pretend i dk these november babies! and i will noe u all when december comes LOL :D its jus a joke ! LOL.
but did not wrk in the end, cos my aunt wan watch "you are the apple of my eyes!" LOL(: i watched de second times. de guy is still so cute the gal is so sweet looking! the songs are still so nice, and still feel its worth watching (: <3 thumb up! and went walking around with ah yi shw a really cute bear towel (: n bought it o! haha((:
we are "PAID" before shopping LOL. joke!
well.. tts all (: gd night world!

i hope you are feeling better? (:

2011-11-19T11:52:00.003+08:00

due to the f cramps i slp early again ytd night.
woke up in the mornin 8+ with lots of sms n watapps .
i missed my doraemon so bring it dwn n hug it.
wanted to wait till 930 to watch my doraemon but went bak to slp. cos i don't feel happy after seeing the messages.
sleep till 11plus saw rine missed call sorry ah rine i nv on sound! ):
yup gg out with cheng lata (:

You belongs to them .
Anyone know what i want?/: cause i have no idea.

2011-11-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

going out on wkdays after school with heavy school bag and laptop . with spine injuries and cramps aren't good at all. its killing me! when celebrate Min bday earlier as her bday fall on de wed (: haha. went eat nados and gave min a suprise LOL.!((: hope u enjoy!~

bought a rilakuma pencil case n a file! OMG ITS SO CUTE! cos my pencil box lyk wu yao ke jiu le LOL!
the movie"you are the apple of my apple" totally fall in love wit de show with the song with the guy n with the gal LOL (: damn nice!<3

yesterday after runnin feel like dying de pain s unbearable. how come running will cause gastric pain? so went to slp stright after i bath. cant take de pain at all. -.-

2011-11-18T06:57:00.002+08:00

Seriously my spine n my gastric is killing me after the 10 round run yesterday . I pain till like I'm gg die ): no more exercise this few day

2011-11-15T15:27:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate you seriously ! No have own thinking no own character no own personalities ! You are fucking annoying and a asshole ! Your r super thick skin super grossed ! Only noe hw to copy ppl ! No life seriously ! Really grossed ah u ! Hen Tao Yan ni ! 你做人失败max !

2011-11-13T22:21:00.002+08:00

i missed the days .
when i hold on to the HB, 2B pencils
drawing on drawing papers.
holding colorful chalks , holding paint brushes of diff sizes.
using charcoals.
drawing on large canvas.
doing art with rachel and friends. with miss yoe.
the forever comfortable art room at the 4th level
with miss yoe special music playing. giving us ideas.
staying till late just to rush for our final art works.
F&N students like HJ WZ HL POON & andy will always bring food in for us.
i really missed.
i love drawing. really. really.

i missed you art.
i missed drawing with Rachel Chan.
i missed our Art Room.
i missed Miss Yoe.

2011-11-12T21:20:00.003+08:00

在这世界上会真的有人需要我吗？

2011-11-12T18:01:00.003+08:00

钱没了，可以赚。
感情破裂了，怎么办？
说出的话收不回。
不要怀疑，相信就好。
过得好就好。
大家开心在一起就好。

世界变了样，人也渐渐得变了。
不想回[]。
我们的幸福呢？

2011-11-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

I ran 6 rounds today oh !~ Provoke me n I will run more I will do more . In not angry for no reason . It cos I noe the thick skin gal is wan make use of u ! Tt y I am so angry . Asshole . First I dislyk running now running lyk bcome part of my life . Running is GOOD! One day witout running make me feel so weird. Jia you (:

2011-11-09T18:23:00.001+08:00

你知道我有多讨厌你吗！厚脸皮小丑！讨厌你！八婆八婆八婆！

2011-11-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

I think I'm very 善变/: awhile v hyper happy . Awhile in total silent . Awhile heartbroken . I'm so emotional. Ppl won't fin me diff to understand ? Don't know what mood I will be wat will I do the next second . 我很善变.

2011-11-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

Went to orchard with my sis. to acc her to buy her D&D things.
saw this hello kitty tee! damn cute de can (:
i'm so tired.
no energy ):

finally there is food tml! (: happy

don't so sad le . everything will be fine (: cos im always here !

2011-11-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

seriously i don deserved all this from you do i?
from now on i will never care of how u feel or wat u think , since u never think for me not even once. U THIS ASSHOLE! _|_

2011-10-30T15:40:00.004+08:00

ytd night went halloween sentosa spooktaculars!
its our first halloween outing o!~
cos in the past everybody seem nt interested (:
althought the queue is really long! but it damn scary and its worth it. (:
they rli put in alot effort huh. LOL.
its damn scary -.- lucky gt my bro. if nt i will faint inside LOL . thank poon!
outing wit them is forver GREAT! (: as usual enjoyed ourselves! but damn tired.

2011-10-29T15:35:00.002+08:00

i thought i had recovered.
but the fact shows that i have not.

2011-10-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

Running in the rainy night s damn gd ! Bt I'm de only person running on the track. I can tolerate everything bt not FAT !!!!!

2011-10-26T10:42:00.000+08:00

I am just happy now (: Really happy .

2011-10-21T00:28:00.000+08:00

有苦难言，眼不见为净

2011-10-20T20:51:00.004+08:00

Lao Kor : Mei 生病了啊？
Me: no ah . 心生病了。):
Lao Kor : haha !

你们的快乐建立在我的痛苦上？
是不是再也不重要了？
是不是不在乎了？
是不是误解了？
你知道我真的相信你吗？
难道一切都不重要了吗？
到最后你们都没事。只有我会被你们弄疯了！

2011-10-18T20:48:00.002+08:00

I don't say doesn't mean I don't know . I never show doesn't mean I don't care . I still feel sad seriously ):

2011-10-15T20:24:00.004+08:00

ytd meet at scape for sakae sushi (:
haha. den after dinner we went to wait for lao xuan end wrk.
at 1st gg clark quay bar , but end uo gg thomson pub "sara" the lady boss is very friendly (: i think we had great fun. talking abt the past and finding out reasons for things that had no been answered . LOL(:
after tt went prata hse they wan eat supper!
den hm sweet hm (:

seriously i love my sec sch friends <3
we are like a big family(:

even school reopen now i will find more time to spend with you all!!~

2011-10-14T12:19:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went USS !! ((: YAY!! its so fun
i saw my fav kung fu panda i jiu CHIONG to Q tp tak pic with him HE S SO CUTE <3
I LOVE USS <3
all the pics are in fb cos upload here take me hrs jus to upload these 5 pics -.-

2011-10-12T21:57:00.001+08:00

(: I am so touch-ed !! Thank you for everything ! Thank you for making me feel that I'm so impt :D although v happy if we will be in same class but . Cnt so selfish de mah /: rite ?! Haha ((: thank you .

2011-10-12T09:04:00.001+08:00

怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散得匆忙
我已经跟不上

闭上眼睛还能看见

你离去的痕迹

在月光下一直找寻

那想念的身影

如果说分手是苦痛的起点

那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍

想要对你说的不敢说的爱

会不会有人可以明白

我会发着呆然后忘记你

接着紧紧闭上眼

想着那一天会有人代替

让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑

接着紧紧闭上眼

又想那一年你温柔的脸

在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪模糊了视线
你会看不见

2011-10-11T23:49:00.002+08:00

Actually of cos feel disappointed although I know we most properly won't be in same class bt still can't help to feel disappointed ./: I wonder hw class will be without u |: just to used to have you around. disappointment but it's ok (:

2011-10-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

went to meet ah rine at orchard ion cos we r buying new slippers!
i wait-ed so long for her to come bak from her holiday!! ahahha((:
ion de colors we wanted is limited . so we train-ed to dhoby ghaut de havanas. still de color i wanted de sky blue is no more ): wat a sad day. LOL.
den bought a yellow wit blur strip de. ah rine bought a purple de (:
den train-ed to bishan to eat tori Q after tt we bought gong ch n walked hm (:
im so tired so my nice ah rine qian jiu me tak a few pics only <3
let meet soon! and rine thanks for de short u bought bak frm bangkok i can wear o (:

2011-10-04T02:59:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of being Huang Baoyi ! Am I really that not worth .

2011-10-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

a day with my sis & aunt.
went bai bai with my aunt and went to eat.
im looking for my hp case ): bt i found none haix..
sian.
gonna slp early tonight (:
good night!

2011-10-01T23:05:00.001+08:00

Maybe I shouldn't bother you anymore . Dont Wana be a fan si ren de person . |: I will go runnin tml . Run all de saddbess away .

2011-10-01T12:15:00.005+08:00

The rest of the pics are in FACEBOOK (: haha too muhch pics le (:
wah its was like the best genting trip ever!
being with them no matter where, when , what , how and why! its always the BEST! (:
3days 2 night passed abit too fast ):
OK! When our next trip?! BANGKOK?! haha :D
LOVE MY SEC SCH FRENS MAX SERIOUSLY!
they are simply too cute!
i really feel blessed to know them (:

YAY YAY!!! ((:

2011-09-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!!! Went runnin again tonight gosh in so tired !!-.-" pls I will slp at 11 sharp tonight !! I don wan eat lunch again le . Eat le feel uncomfortable , feel like vomiting everytime I eat lunch ): n nd go runnin after tt cos regret eating lol !!): I'm so tired tine to rest (:

2011-09-25T21:33:00.003+08:00

Today went to AMK hub to take bus 133 to go bugis to bai bai (:
den meet my ah rine , she pei me go shopping ((: LOVE YOU <3
never joke sia, the weather really killing ppl. we like being BBQ alive -.-
den get wat i want le. bus-ed bak to Bishan bt we took de wrong bus so reached amk instead -.-" n we walked to junction 8 OMG! SO WARM SIA DE WEATHER!
haha. we took pics in de bus (: there s bee in the bus -.-"
LOL! we eat de tori Q? is it OMG DAMN NICE CAN <3
den went amk walk walk den went meet mummy n kor kor bt i eaten le so go drink water.
den ah rine hm sweeet hm ((: haha
THANKS AH RINE <3
i'm so tired ((:
ok im gg to help my mum make de phone thingy le ((:
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE!!

i like to take long journey bus alone with my music (:

LOVED(:

2011-09-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

Never Give Up (:

2011-09-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

OMG!
today noon meet felicia went town to shop again
eat subway. 1st time eat all veggies .. OMG.. i will nv eat all veggies again!
eat till so omg .. not nice de ):
de drink oso fall my hands legs short! all kana! OMG!):
LOL. im so tired.
never get any tops ):
but i get de short i wan ((:
tml gg bugis bai bai n shop for my top (: with ah rine!!
omg! im dead tired )):

ytd 5plus den slp. damn hungry! ):
talking to hee hee ((: and tao tao (:
im so hungry!!
but i slp le jiu till mornin le LOL.
(:

well good night !
i miss you always (:

2011-09-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

YEAH YEAH!!!
went shoppin today after wrk wit HJ (:
cos li jun say she dk can anot haha!
happy shopping sia!!!
i bought a baseball jacket n jean, (:
surprise bah huang baoyi will buy jean?! haha
cos its rli nice!!
and im gg bak for my top. and short mayb somewhere else LOL
shopping addict? crazy LOL (: super happy !!
thank HJ for waitin for me !! LOL :x
i am super long tryin almost half the clothes n short in de shop -.- well its a small shop LOL

im so tired this mornin was so cold. and i look into the mirror -.-
omg. don feel lyk gg wrk cos i look like a zombie!
one word ! UGLY! /: jialet. mus slp earlier le! ):

hmm 4 more days to genting (:
looking forward!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHEAN YANG ((:
i went to ps to buy his present!
my fav sheep!!
a mug. LOL sorry i dk wat u wan! ask u but u say anything i buy u like soo.. LOL :P
i lyk tis mug alot ok! if he dare complain i will use it myself! LOL :x
reason y i buy de sheep mug , cos u are YANG
second cos rmb wen i am sec 1 u r sec 4 haha LOL.
ur bday i bought a forever fren bear mug for u too . LOL
tt time de u like LOL. hide under table! GOSH! LOL

This mornin so many ppl sms me. -.- ask me check result!
okok i noe result s out bt i don wan check! )):
haha. well i drop again ): haix.. damn sad. bt happy at the same time cos nt s jialet as i thought it will be
i will work damn damn hard to increase my gpa!
I F..KING SWEAR!!
pls don drop anymore ):
i have weak heart! LOL >:

MISSES .

2011-09-22T02:26:00.000+08:00

i really miss you ! )):

2011-09-21T20:16:00.001+08:00

After days saying wan to go running but nv do it . FINALLY went runnin alone today ! De feelin s so good ! Though the sport I never like before now im liking it (: I will start running from today on . ALONE (: u can do it !! (((:

2011-09-21T15:57:00.000+08:00

I'm Iike in a freezer !! ): 2 more hours to go ! Bring 2 jackets tml ):

2011-09-20T00:23:00.003+08:00

i have enjoyed my holiday (:
haha !! like a happening only these days.!
i was almost out every single day of my life.
no matter is after wrk or wkends. (:
hee! (: sec sch friends are always the best? (:
actually no matter in pri sch sec sch or poly all my friends are so nice ! <3
im a fortunate girl? * nod nod *

Today meet ah jun for lunch , she just came bak from HK , bought me a rilakkuma case. (:
den 2 stitch poloarid film! HAPPY TILL CAN FLY!!~
after work meet ah jun pei her go orchard interview for job and went for subway (:
WOOHOO!!~ we took some pics hee with our phones!! haha CUTE RIGHT?! WINK WINK HAHA.
we talked alot and laughed alot too . complaining to her things! haha ((:
tml after wrk mus go tpy help cheng buy her hp case (:
den i will go to genting on the 28 - 30 sept! don't miss me people ! LOL <:
tml lunch will meet ah jun n van van wan pass her present!
n die die mus pass rine pudding!!! haha ((: from fri dragged till nw -.- POWER! haha <3 well i gg slp le! if nt tml late again -.- I WAN EARN MORE $!!!

result coming out im so worried )): i surely die this time.
i want be in the same class as my AH JUN!! PLEASE PLEASE!

good night people(:

2011-09-18T12:26:00.002+08:00

are you still the one i used to know. ?
you shouldn't behave like this.
cause the one i know will never bt like tis.

always remember to smile like how you use to.
i miss-ed it.

2011-09-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

What happened to you ?! ))):

2011-09-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

So tired of working -.- can I self declare holiday LOL (:

2011-09-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

Today went facial with my mummy , cousin and Aunty . Finally went facial cos my face lyk cui !!! Cannot make it sia ! ):< haix.. Haha tml gg wrk again le . Roar haha (: yuan lai alot ppl read my blog wor (,,,^.^,,,) shy wor lol !! ALL STALKERS! Haha ((: ok ok tml gg celebrate mooncake festival and supper BUT I'm on diet so no no (:

2011-09-10T20:36:00.002+08:00

I feel so pathetic .|: fml. Is the fucking nightmare coming true ? HELL NO ! _|_

2011-09-10T02:09:00.002+08:00

Being so cold |: I noe you don't mean to be like this so I say it's ok I'm fine . ): when you are begging like this seriously I'm kinda lost. What should I actually do? Don't like me to call you this way ? I dk . Just so lost. When I care for your feelings and thoughts , will someone care for my feelings too ? ...

2011-09-08T22:25:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to do when you refused to tell me things ):
its hurts to see you being like this.
why you will like this? . |: don be like this.
i really care.

don't be like this anymore.

2011-09-08T00:56:00.002+08:00

you know , what the most important in life?
is being able to be alive.
actually everyone that are alive are v blessed. seriously
after listening my aunt malay aunty colleage say about the life in prison, about people getiting hang, all that i feel sad. and the same time learn to treasure every life.
and i will learn to treasure everyday that will given to me.
i cant imagine the feeling of the people being hang.
its really a cruel thing for them to accept. ):

i really will learn to treasure my life from now on. not just saying. i will do it. (:<

good night people. treasure your life too ((:

2011-09-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

Today is my off day , went PS to get the iphone. well i get the white one, but actually i prefer the black one all along. so well you noe hw undecisive is this girl ): seriously i always like the black one over the white one . but. cos everyone telling me white is nicer so i get it. |: nvm i will like it soon . (hopefully)
i am nt v excited non happy about the iphone. i still missed my old phone. with messages that i can't transfer over. this is what i hate most when changing to a new phone ):
accompany mummy go c doctor at braddell cos she is coughing and causing headache. in the end i was late ! for meeting tom they all :x im late for 40 mins! its like i seldom seldom late. den i jiu chiong out without drying my hair. and in the end, they actually laughed at me -.- say i walked so manly! WTH ppl rushing to meet u all leh! TAO YAN! ):
haha..
went east coast actually gg cycle. bt wei jun rejected the idea right away *PIANG* haha.. heartbroke , its ok , we will go again anyway. and yet , 11plus then reached hm. cos they changed my sim card to the smaller version for the iphone, and i have to charge my phone for 8 hrs b4 using. so i went out the whole day without my phone. and i don't feel akward at all. cos i always forget to bring my phone out -.-
my phone will be give to my dad , cos he want it. -.- i think kor kor will angry . cos we actually wan trade in the phone bt since he want it i will give him. althought kor kor n i pay for the phone /: jus hope he will nt spoil it i jiu ok le (:
im going wrk again tml. tired..
thanks wei jie for accompanying me home (:

i just feel the pain. without any reason. it so out of the blue.
and nothing actually happen.

miss.

2011-09-06T03:04:00.002+08:00

Now is already 3plus am . (:
yeah yeah no worries im nt wrking tml.
just gg east coast to cycle.
i just finished watchihng "fruits basket".
its a vcd that mummy bought me for my birthday when im in primary school?
well KYOU has always been my favourite character from young till now its still the same. i like people that are like him (: i think he is v cute haha(: dk hw to say bt jus like his personality and character. decided to sleep after watching de.
bt de last animation , is not only funny, meaning but also touching.so im afraid now i sleep , tml i will have swollen eyes. so decided to blog (: before falling aslp.
i think i wont watch the vcd for a long time b4 i watch again. cos i will go crazy over KYOU hahaha. so cannot keep watchin (:
its damn nice. still remember during my sec sch , cheng , chel n me always wen to xin tian di to look for comic i will always buy de lastest fruit basket (: haha. and i will finished reading in a day haha ((:
i want sleep le. hopefully no swollen eyes tml =.=
Good Night!

you just need times to get over it.
its somethings you can't change over-night.
don't rush, do it slowly , bit by bit.
cause you see , when you injured yourself. the deeper the wound the longer it takes to heal. so its de same . even can't recovery 100% confirm have 99.99% (:

Doctor Bao :x LOL
give yourself some times (:
yeah , you can d

2011-09-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

i had a nightmare yesterday night. it was so true that after i wake up, i thought the dream is real.
it is a nightmare , a real nightmare.
please don't happen.
don't.

2011-09-05T23:03:00.003+08:00

Tao Tao sent me a song "It Gets Better: Bruno Mars - Today My Life Begins "
i find the song meaningful and nice oh (:
i love it!
listenin to it really make me feel so happy (:
THANKS TAO for all the concern!(: <3

2011-09-04T21:33:00.004+08:00

yay yay (:
went out with lao tao today (: actually gg eat dou hua! BUT haha went eat best fries instead (: den wait for felicia n zhi rong , they watchin movie.
haha. so long never go out wit them le (:
not bad lah today ((: quite enjoyable , bt dk y i so tired. haha:D
well well i injured my arm , keep bleeding and felicia gave me a micky mouse plaster? ahah (: THANKS <3

yeah yeah more pics are always on Facebook (:

gonna wrk again tml.
good night (:

always remember to be happy o (:

2011-09-04T00:38:00.002+08:00

i smurf you (:
The smurf is damn nice!!! ((:
super cute and really BLUE haha
i lyk de angry one (: cos he damn cute ahha ((:
i'm tired.

whenever , you think of dying. think.
you know you shouldn't .

2011-09-03T00:12:00.001+08:00

a non-functioning heart? |:

2011-08-31T14:40:00.001+08:00

what the hell is this.
i am suppose to start work tis morning.
but i see my sis sicked and stayin hm all alone
i will start work from tml on!
bt wen i wake up! she s no where to be found!
wth. i should ignore her , and go wrk today.
ARGH!!! even she sick again i will not worry about her!

)))):

2011-08-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

is it time to be sick-ed of being alone?
is it time to feel sad, after many tries , you still failed to do it?
is it time to hide myself in somewhere no-one can find me?
is it time i shut down everything.
i don't like to use laptop.
but i use because.
i am a hot temper people.
but i never scolds , because.
i'm tired, but i don sleep because.
because because because.

i will not give up (:

2011-08-30T14:40:00.004+08:00

feel like going out now.
alone.
all alone.
but i can't think of anywhere.
i like it when it is dark.
i want to sit alone in a place, at night looking at the stars blinking to me in the night sky.
letting me to emo as much as i want.
i can never emo with someone is around with me (:
i don't know why.
no matter how heartbroke i am , with someone around . there will always be a smile (:
haha. ((:

let me think where should i go.
i don't want to be at home.

i feel like doing it again now.
should i bring a penknife along?
i'm not doing it.
without an reason.
just let me be alone for the rest of today.
i find myself behaving abit too weird today. /:<
and i'm kinda scare of myself.

i better stay home tonight.

not home today.

2011-08-30T14:14:00.002+08:00

We are not going to sing song already today.
This morning my sis wake up , and start vomiting . i think im too tired and thought i was dreaming. -.- till noon i wake up, she say she is sick.
i asked her to go c doctor. but she just lie there. -.-
later i thought ok she is ok le. den she ask me to ask my aunt about something, i just ask her go see doctor. tsk. irrits. its remind me. how she treat me when i can't hear few months before./: i talked about it . den she jiu wah u very exggerating leh, can't hear only only not deaf. she still say you still gt energy what that day. excuse me . how u know i wont be deaf that day? when im feeling so helpless. did you came out of the fucking room to take a look at me and ask me go see doctor? haha. you just continue using ur fucking computer! den now, you are sick, you want me to help you? actually i will , i just want complain let you know you shouldn't do that to me that time. i just you know. /:< haiz.. then i can say you are exggerating too now what, cause you only vomit what rite? so you have to understand people when they are feeling helpless and you are the only one that can be with them at the moment, but you aren't doing it. so now when you need help , people do the same , can you feel the helplessness? at least i run dwnstair to look for you , but i can't find you. and i noe aunt is with you le. else i will continue finding you. you? haha. even i went out to see doctor and came back you don't know. nice one. somemore you are my elder sis clap man (: you are too pro le.

just remember what goes around , comes around. when you start to complain why people treat you in these ways. Think, what have you done to make them do that to you?
):

2011-08-30T00:12:00.001+08:00

2011-08-29T21:56:00.007+08:00

Today supposed to meet ah rine and ah min, but ah min 失眠 till morning 10plus am and headache so only meet ah rine .
Actually decide go the 1960's food court to eat. bt without min so we changed our plan to go watch movie. (: due to alot reasons haha :D we decided nt to watch.
went shopping at vivo, den trained to orchard ate best fries! YUMMY!!! den bus-ed back to AMK to eat prawn mee. cos today s public holiday and we didnt notice and OMG! ALOT PPL SIAN 1/2 haha
fountain still best (:
but in de end went to rine void deck and do the things we usually do! haha :D
alot more pics at my FB go take a look (: its damn funny (: cos we r crazy (: haha
days spent tgt is always fun (: min we miss-ed you ): haha.
Good Night (:

BestFriend (:
She is my Pretty Girl (:

2011-08-29T03:10:00.001+08:00

communicate. |:
my fucking bad temper is killing people )):

2011-08-29T00:20:00.006+08:00

HO HO!~
today went JB to eat with mummy ah yi and lao bee (jie jie)
de food damn nice!
and i get THE STITCH FLIRM AHHHHHH!!! EXCITED!!!~
den wen i saw de doraemon moon cake i start to qi siao!!
AWWWWWW DORAEMON HEN CUTE!!! I WANT!!
i cant believe im 21 yrs old -.-" omg. haha
den mummy was ai yo. ur money lyk easy to bluff ahahaha :D
lalala! bt doaramon out of stock! T.T I WANT!!!~ )):
kkk fine.
tomorrow gonna meet my ah rine and ah min!! lyk finally!!! ((:
den tues gg KBOX with lao bee.
wed start wrk thurs meet my chel n cheng lyk a finally too ((:
lalala!!
i want watch smurf!!! haha :D <3

people look at me, first. hmm this girl must be very gently and quiet. when i keep quiet.
BUT when i start talking. the person eyes will POPPED out! OMG -.- this girl so chu lu haha LOL

good night!~

2011-08-28T14:11:00.004+08:00

no matter who you are,
no matter you are nice or bad.
its doesnt matter if you hurt me before.
no matter who, once you entered my life, can you don't ever leave.
the thing i hate most is having to say goodbye. |:

memories are good , are always the best.
but its sucks, when the person that bought you these happy memories to your life leaves.
and whenever the memories flashed in ur mind, the pain is worse than the feeling of heartbroke.
no matter who you are.
don't ever say goodbye.

don't.

2011-08-28T00:30:00.001+08:00

~

2011-08-27T21:20:00.009+08:00

This morning paint my nails NAVY BLUE and white poka dots o~
haha. this is what i want do long ago!~ YEAH!! haha
but when going school i don't like to be SUPER PLAIN so i wont do any of these things haha .
This noon went bugis with jie jie to bai bai.
then come bak amk meet mummy go eat (:
den hm sweet hm. im so tired!
im so bored. so hee hee start to take alot of stupid pics :x sorry haha..
my sis join in de fun too LOL . (:

the same Person A: you know you are so %$*&^$*)(#)^&%#^& don't text me when you are bored , i have no fucking time to entertain you. i don't need people that make use of people. idiot!. ):<

going malaysia tomorrow. hmm not exicited haha. |:

Good Night(:

i am so ugly. ):

2011-08-27T00:10:00.005+08:00

Person A , are you really the kind of person people say you are? |:
Person B , don't push all the blame to me. its not my fault. i can't stand you anymore.

i was wondering sometimes, what i really want. what am i doing? did i think of the outcome? what im thinking sia. /:

life is amazing, at first i don't know you.
never did i thought that i will get to know you.

Went AMK hub with kor kor to check on the iphone lao kor promised to get for me as my birthday gift(: WINK WINK haha..
then went MAC to eat, cos my lao kor want eat. -.- my kor dote me too much ah. buy me double macSpicy! please! i can't finished de whole macSpicy le, you still buy double?! den i was lyk i don care u eat haha. (: so he ate 3 layers chicken macSpicy LOL. (:
den went meet my ah jun , go ion we walked to and forth the whole orchard looking for van van present ah LOL. den gt it. so get bored. LOL so went slacking when waitin for her bf to come. actually meeting chel and cheng de, but ah jun bf delay de timing cos of the NS thingy, den i pei her wait till 10 plus then i went hm . sorry chel i will sure be there wen the next outing! sorry for always being unavailable ): so we chit chat and too tired to take pics haha. so we jus chit chat chat chat chat (: den we sitting at 313 outside forever 21 i saw de dress that i wanted to buy for my birthday that day ! but its a last piece on de model and de sales person say cannot remove! den now now ... i saw it!! ARGH, cannot die die must try it. haha. so went to try.ok im so tired. gg malaysia on sunday to eat with jie jie mummy and ah yi wor (: wed i will start work.
o well say halo to my new birdies PINK slippers! YES it PINK . im shocked that i will get it too but, its just too CUTE to resist it ! haha <3

i missed my chel & cheng<3
i missed my rine & min<3
i missed all my sec school friends.
i missed my poly friends.
i always miss.... miss.. miss...
I WILL MEET ALL OF YOU IN THIS HOLIDAY! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU MUHAHAHAHAHAHHAA :D

2011-08-26T10:11:00.003+08:00

always be yourself and don't worry about what people think and say about you, for even you are a perfect person, you still be misjudged by people.

i miss you. |:

2011-08-26T02:16:00.001+08:00

my brother lied.
its hurts to know that.
even if its not the first time he disappointed me.
but its like the first time he lied to me.
hurt.

don't ever lied.

2011-08-26T01:29:00.002+08:00

This morning when i was rushing my maths, to go school teach derek,mummy was packing her things, den she came in with my last time de passport picture and she is saying ai yo ah mei, you see so cute . haha(: Thanks ah, but i don't think i look like how i was when i was young. haha .

Then its remind me about something when i was young haha.
its wasn't something that is pleasant.
but what i can say is my parents are really nice to us. its just they have no time.
ok well. its was like why? why am i a normal 'o' level student just in poly year two now is 21 instead of 19? |:
well, i don't usual tell and explain to people why. i only did if they asked. or maybe won't explain even if they ask.
cause i don't like to do so.
people will think that i had retained. but its not the fact. i don't like the feeling when people learned about the age , they will not think much other then just asking me , OH! so you retained two years? that feeling wasn't good at all. i had never retained. NEVER.
i don't usually explain i think even i explain, people might think that its too dramatic too be real. when people say so,i will be looking like i don't mind, but actually its hurts. who will want to be like this leh right?. who will want to waste two years of their life? who will want to be different from the others being the odd one? i wan't given a chance , so wasn't anyone of my family members.
maybe its all fated.
As since young i was always stick to my mummy, so even when i was 5-6 years old going kingdergarten, my mum was always there for me. I will be so terrified if i don't see her, because i only went to the school for once or twice in my memory and the last time i went was just to take the graduation picture. as my parents have no time to bring me to school and my sis and bro are schooling primary school at that time. After that its 7 years old, my primary 1 life is the start of my nightmare. i still remember every single things that happened. The teacher in the school is like devils to me at that time. They don't understand teh fear in a kid that never leave her mum side, they just drag me in the class closed all the windows all the doors , leaving me falling on the ground crying like i was going to die and shouting for my mum , pleading them to let me out. but they ignored me. they just let me crying alone on the ground right in the middle of the class. till hours passed they finally let me out. the moment they opened the door i run out like don't know what. now i noe my mum must be so heartache to see me like that ): After that , my mum was standing outside my class, when i'm in the class, with the door opened and im sitting beside the door. soon after the english class, the chinese teacher came. there come the monster. The 1st lesson of her class scares me totally and from there day on i reject going school, die also don't want to everytime when mummy ask me go school i will cry like there is no tomorrow. She is a very fierce teacher , the 1st lesson she asked us to do the xi zi, den i was happily writting, then 1st day of the school and i am just primary 1 what you expect a primary 1 new student to do? den she just take my book and throw my book away and shouting at me , saying my handwriting are ugly. i remember from that day on i never enter the class ever again.
so i ended nt schooling for a year, the second year , im 8 years old going back to the same school, same class! still in primary 1. Everyone expect the teachers to change , but no, its still the same teachers! chinese or english . omg i was so terrify but mummy wont let me go. but im rli scare. i remember i went to the class for just once for the second time. |: The english teacher recommended mummy to bring to me a psychology. and i went to see the pschology for one whole year , before i re enter a new school at the aged of 9, but being in primary 1. and i start to meet new teachers that are nice, and know friends. but still i'm super quiet. every yr my report book comment will have Baoyi is a very quiet girl , she needs to open her mouth to talk and to ask questions. haha every year till i am in primary 3. when im 11 years old when all my classmates are 9 years old, i met my best friend Terine and Minyi , they changed me to now the me (: <3 hahaa. and from then on my school life was wonderful, even till now.
i really thanks my mummy for everything she does. (:
but its really hurts and the feeling sucks to be the odd one. to being labelled as retained when i'm not ):

nobody want to be the "unique" one if they have the choice to choose.
the "unique" feelings wasn't good at all.
not at all.
something that cannot be changed for life.

i keep them all to myself.
the feelings = ): .

2011-08-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

can you always be there ? ):

2011-08-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

变态。